And after Easter and seeing my children routinely become evil when exposed to sugar - I need to quell the sugar monsters in this house before it claims us all.
But it is the hardest thing ever. I have a SERIOUS sweet tooth. And my girlies take after their momma (the candy apple didn't fall far from the tree there).
But I am most definitely a sugar addict. It is the root of most of my problems. My weight. My energy. My coffee addiction (though, as I have proven on my coffee wean - I can be very content with black tea and a little honey instead of my cream and 6 sugar coffee).
Last night - after devouring a ton of Callebaut chocolate and 4 plastic eggs full of jelly beans - I lay quaking in bed. The fact that I had also had some extensive sugar conversations with my dad through the day that had left me thinking. Then the girls woke up with their own sugar crashes and I was experiencing narcoleptic-like exhaustion and the sugar monster in me broke free and I started screaming.
The thing is, though, when I am eating sugar - I feel normal. Level. and I don't usually experience a crash. Yesterday was kind of unusual in that. This has me wondering what I would feel like if I got rid of it. If I didn't need to keep my sugar level nice and high to feel normal. To be free of afternoon sugar binges. To not feel the overwhelming need to sneak that bag of gummy candies into the house. What would my weight normalize to if all I had were natural sugars? What would my skin and hair look like? What other things would I notice about myself? Would it be like cutting coffee out? When I found I had more energy and didn't actually need it?
I guess what I am saying is that I feel an experiment coming on. And it's a biggie! I just need to plan it out but the great sugar wean of 2013 (and forever?) is about to begin.
We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot.~ Eleanor Roosevelt