Monday, April 1, 2013

Sugar Monster

For the past month, sugar has been weighing heavily on me.   It's easy to tell the moment it started.  It was when I found out my dad had been diagnosed Type 2 Diabetic.   Sugar caught him.  And I know it is only a matter of time before it catches me too.

And after Easter and seeing my children routinely become evil when exposed to sugar - I need to quell the sugar monsters in this house before it claims us all.

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But it is the hardest thing ever.  I have a SERIOUS sweet tooth.  And my girlies take after their momma (the candy apple didn't fall far from the tree there).

But I am most definitely a sugar addict. It is the root of most of my problems.  My weight.  My energy. My coffee addiction (though, as I have proven on my coffee wean - I can be very content with black tea and a little honey instead of my cream and 6 sugar coffee).

Last night - after devouring a ton of Callebaut chocolate and 4 plastic eggs full of jelly beans - I lay quaking in bed.   The fact that I had also had some extensive sugar conversations with my dad through the day that had left me thinking.  Then the girls woke up with their own sugar crashes and I was experiencing narcoleptic-like exhaustion and the sugar monster in me broke free and I started screaming.

The thing is, though, when I am eating sugar - I feel normal.  Level.  and I don't usually experience a crash.  Yesterday was kind of unusual in that.  This has me wondering what I would feel like if I got rid of it.  If I didn't need to keep my sugar level nice and high to feel normal.  To be free of afternoon sugar binges.  To not feel the overwhelming need to sneak that bag of gummy candies into the house.  What would my weight normalize to if all I had were natural sugars?  What would my skin and hair look like? What other things would I notice about myself?   Would it be like cutting coffee out?  When I found I had more energy and didn't actually need it?

I guess what I am saying is that I feel an experiment coming on.  And it's a biggie!  I just need to plan it out but the great sugar wean of 2013 (and forever?) is about to begin.


We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot.
~ Eleanor Roosevelt

13 comments:

  1. I'm trying this for a week with Laura from mommyrunfast.com :) hopefully it'll last longer than a week we shall see! Good luck you can do it!

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    1. Good luck to you as well! I am hoping I feel better enough that I can make it permanent!

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  2. Good post :) Growing up my mom had a major chocolate addiction. When I was 12 she ate a ton of easter chocolate then most of the kids too. At that moment she swore she would never eat chocolate again....and she never HAS! (20+ years later). She treats it like poison. Wish I could be like that!

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    1. When I was 16, I cut out chocolate for over a year to see if it would help my skin...it didn't :( I wish I had the willpower to go cold turkey! Your mom is superwoman!

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    2. I cut out sugar for 10 days just before I got pregnant and the first few days were tough but then it got way better. I need to implement something soon since its getting a little out of control at our house right now. I wish I could just enjoy the occasional treat but I am such a binger.

      Good luck!

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  3. I, too, have a seriously sweet tooth. Funny how we must be on the same wavelength because today I started a challenge to eliminate all sweets from my diet for a month. I mean candy, cookies, cupcakes, ice cream, chocolate... I'll see how it goes, but so you know, you are not alone. I don't feel like murdering someone yet, but I am giving myself some leeway with the workout nutrition, where I can sneak in a gel or a cereal bar. Good luck, you can do this!

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    1. I figure making the decision is good for today ;) But I just ordered a book and am going through the pantry to expel the crap.

      I figure I will need to make allowances for my workout nutrition too. I can't imagine running 14K and beyond without a gel...but maybe this will encourage me to find alternatives that allow me to be free of processed sugar...

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  4. My name is Michelle. I'm a cookie-a-holic. Not even a recovering one. Currently addicted. Just ate 3/4 of a bag of gluten-free animal cookies. One day at a time. I'd be happy to join in a community plan for elimination of sugar. "help"?

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    1. That's not a bad idea. I'll let you know if I find a good online community or challenge for it. Not sure I have time to run one myself right now but it might help with motivation and stick-to-it-ive-ness

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    2. You girls can join our challenge group on Facebook if you want! Everyone welcome, and it's never too late! https://www.facebook.com/groups/535562526486992/

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    3. Oh - I'd love that. But I am not on FB anymore :(

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    4. Well, then join virtually! I am watching you ;-)

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    5. SUPER! I expect a virtual bitch slap if I fall out of line.

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